Todd and I recently went to the Josh Wilson/Matthew West concert at our church it was amazing! Especially a song Matthew West sang about seeing the ultrasound of his brand new daughter, pretty awesome. Lately I have found myself being a control freak, with everything in my life. I want everything in our house to be perfect when our baby gets here, but I felt like I could never be happy with bringing our son or daughter to a house that is not completely spotless, or doesn't have that perfect shade of paint on their bedroom walls...or the newest crib and dresser set.
I know that Todd has been working really hard with working full time, plus class one night a week which equals about a weeks worth of homework, and he has also been trying really hard to make sure everything is perfect for our baby.
When Josh Wilson performed his song "Savior Please" at our church Thursday night, I knew that needed to be my prayer, to let go and not worry or try to control every thing around me. Here are the lyrics.
Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me
This song could not have come at a more perfect time. I am feeling really well, just not getting very much sleep at night. I think God is preparing me for those late night feedings:) I don't mind it though, it gives me time to think about our baby and spend some time alone with my thoughts. I can't believe it has already been 15 weeks, next week we visit the Dr. for a routine check up and then we schedule the ultrasound where we find out the gender!
If it is a girl her name will be Emily Jean
Emily means 'ambitious' and if there is anything I would want my daughter to be it is that. Jean was my Nana's name so she will be named after her, and Jean means 'God is gracious'. We have narrowed down some names for a boy, and I told Todd he could name him if it is a boy:)